I find it interesting that my lovely moving girl and I are both getting ready to move and both working through the journey on this blog.
God's timing is the greatest, yes?
And that was your random thought for the day. ;)
-- Daughter of the Most High
12.13.2010
Blessings
A little intro: I've been living with my mom (I'm 19 and a half, and I should be in my own). Recently my mom informed me that I would have to move out in march, find a new place to live, because she was going to move in with her boyfriend.
I've always been a pushover. I find it very difficult to speak up for myself, to declare my own thoughts. My mom has often expressed frustration at this tried to get me to open up.
God has been working in me, chipping away the ugly stuff, only to get to a layer of pain and heartache. Pain and heartache that I buried in the hopes I would forget. All throughout my childhood, I had abandonment fears. Always worried a parent or someone else close to me would decide I'm not worth their trouble and just leave. This came from my dad shirking responsibilities and breaking promises countless times until I thought it was normal.
I've had to find against these fears so hard to build relationships. I've often felt that old familiar "friend" sneak up behind me and tell me Michael might leave. But I know this can't be true.
I've fought and worked against this. And finally I did it. I told my mom how I really felt. And she replied by informing me my new deadline to move was January 16th.
Pain. Fear. Stress. Anger. Bitterness. All of it flooded over me until I felt I was drowning. But still I managed, amidst this flood, to reach up and hand this to God. He has been slowly answering my prayer, and as of today I know where I'm moving. I don't know when. But I know that God does. And that he's taking care of me. We so often forget just how much God knows about taking care of his creation. And yesterday I was reminded that he is the best father anyone could have.
-- Daughter of the Most High
I've always been a pushover. I find it very difficult to speak up for myself, to declare my own thoughts. My mom has often expressed frustration at this tried to get me to open up.
God has been working in me, chipping away the ugly stuff, only to get to a layer of pain and heartache. Pain and heartache that I buried in the hopes I would forget. All throughout my childhood, I had abandonment fears. Always worried a parent or someone else close to me would decide I'm not worth their trouble and just leave. This came from my dad shirking responsibilities and breaking promises countless times until I thought it was normal.
I've had to find against these fears so hard to build relationships. I've often felt that old familiar "friend" sneak up behind me and tell me Michael might leave. But I know this can't be true.
I've fought and worked against this. And finally I did it. I told my mom how I really felt. And she replied by informing me my new deadline to move was January 16th.
Pain. Fear. Stress. Anger. Bitterness. All of it flooded over me until I felt I was drowning. But still I managed, amidst this flood, to reach up and hand this to God. He has been slowly answering my prayer, and as of today I know where I'm moving. I don't know when. But I know that God does. And that he's taking care of me. We so often forget just how much God knows about taking care of his creation. And yesterday I was reminded that he is the best father anyone could have.
-- Daughter of the Most High
12.11.2010
Obedience
How much more can we as Christians know once we begin to explore the truths of obedience? The ACT of faith. The follow-through, endurance? Not just believing, but doing. We seem to talk about it a lot, mostly in regards to feeding the hungry, helping a neighbor. But what about personal obedience? The spiritual act of worship that comes from us acting upon our faith and belief in God?
(Please understand that I believe you have to be careful that you don't make these actions 'rules' that must be followed. That's not freedom. For more info, check out Galations.)
I'm on a journey these next 21 days till the end of the year, that I will share more about once it's over, but what I'm hoping to learn on this journey is the act of obedience. I want to learn how to endure, how to overcome, how to obey.
So I don't know what these next three weeks are going to look like, but I'll be here or I won't. I want to increase my hunger for God.
I pray that anyone who reads this has an enormously blessed Christmas in which God's presence is abundently present!
--MovingGirl
(Please understand that I believe you have to be careful that you don't make these actions 'rules' that must be followed. That's not freedom. For more info, check out Galations.)
I'm on a journey these next 21 days till the end of the year, that I will share more about once it's over, but what I'm hoping to learn on this journey is the act of obedience. I want to learn how to endure, how to overcome, how to obey.
So I don't know what these next three weeks are going to look like, but I'll be here or I won't. I want to increase my hunger for God.
I pray that anyone who reads this has an enormously blessed Christmas in which God's presence is abundently present!
--MovingGirl
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